I am beginning to dive more into the self-help books I should have gotten into some time ago - like "Children of The Self-Absorbed".
I jot down notes all over the page and most of them are along the lines of "me", "I do this", "YES".
It is startlingly heartbreaking - although I am discovering that I have a severe case of lacking empathy. I believe this is because I was never taught it, and through the years I repressed any extreme or intense emotion I've ever almost experienced. This is catastrophic to the healthy family life I want.
Logically, I get it. Well most of it. Emotionally, I've yet to fully feel it, and perhaps that's in part because I've never really felt, and it's so emotionally intense.
I am not sure, but I'd rather understand myself and my situation, sooner rather than later.